Hmmmm….do you ever have a project that just niggles at you but you can’t work out what the problem is?

I’ve had a few of these recently.  Bad fabric choices.  Poor decisions on patterns. Yada yada yada!

I’ve only myself to blame.

Normally I would blithely carry on regardless, but it seems I’m getting better at listening to the fabric or the pattern, wee voices in my head, and finally making progress towards being the kind of seamstress and knitter that I really want to be.

Case in point….Aislinn.

image from amyherzogdesigns.com

image from amyherzogdesigns.com

Now this time I’m sure I’ve got the pattern right.

I’ve done the mods and knitted the back and it’s looking good.  The fit seems spot on.

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I’ve cast on the front and….

stalled!

I’ve spent the summer holiday procrastinating, prevaricating and downright avoiding knitting this.  I’ve blamed the weather, the kids, the alignment of Mars. Anything but actually looking at the real reason I don’t want to knit this cardigan.

Turns out it’s the yarn.

Debbie Bliss Cashmerino Aran is pretty on the ball, but not so much to knit with. It’s almost too soft.  And when it’s knitted up, it pills like a bear!

At the back of my mind has been the niggling doubt that once finished I’d get little wear out of this before it starts to look shabby.  I know that has happened with my red sweater.

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The thing is, the red sweater is just for throwing on with jeans and wellies for walking the kids and the dog.  It doesn’t matter if it’s a little shabby.  In fact, for those activities it’s almost de rigeur to wear a shabby sweater.

But for a cardigan that’s to be worn in more polite company…well, I want a certain refinement.  Yarn with a little dignity.  That will show up the stitch pattern more crisply, and that will get some wear before becoming a fuzzy mess.

With all this in mind, it’s become clear that I really want to knit Aislinn…just not in this yarn.

And so I’m not going to.

Simple as.

My days of forcing myself to complete a garment that is just “OK” are hereby officially over.

It’s not good enough.

I want my clothes going forward to look lovely and to make me feel great.

Like the red and blue top I’ve just completed.  Even with it’s “design feature” I feel really pulled together in that top.  I’ve worn it a couple of times a week since I finished it.  As soon as it’s on a hanger, it’s my first choice of a morning.

I want all my clothes to be “first choice” clothes.

Which makes me feel better about pulling the Cashmerino off the needles, balling it all back up and sending it off to the charity shop to find a new home.

This decision is in no way helped by the fact that I’m off to Yarndale in a few weeks with some friends.

😉

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